Perception........

Perception, as I am finding out, is not always a good thing. It seems that where I work, perception is almost everything. In the last 2 to 3 years, I have been told a number of times "a number of people perceive you as not very motivated". I was told this the first time a few years ago and because of the "perception" at the time, I was moved from the office I was in.

A few years later (Wed. of this week), I was given yet another talking to. People in my department, as well as others, seem to think I am not very "energetic" about my job and I need to change that. It's not that I am not doing my job or not getting my work done but, just not very enthusiastic or energetic about it.

As long as I am getting my work done, why the fuck do I have to act a certain way. I got along with everyone just fine.........to my knowledge. Didn't have any major issues with anyone. I just needed to pep up some. I guess I took it a little more to heart than I should have. The very next day, had a small tif with my boss over a misunderstanding. I did exactly as I was asked and when asked about it, i was actually expected to do more. ??? My reactioned caused a comment that I really did not like. As I am sure no-one at my worked reads this, i can say, I am looking for a new job.

I have been moved further and further away from design which is where my heart is. I don't see a return to that area in the near future so I am pursuing other opportunities. I have talked to a couple of individuals that are highly shocked that I am not making more than I am. Hopefully that will change soon. Later all..............happy surfing.......